Dumb. That is the only word that can describe me.
i feel so stupid to let go of the chances that came to me!
I am totally feel regretted.
It's true what people always say that regret alaways come at the end.
Honestly. i do miss you right now. I miss the time we used to spend tgt.
I miss the touch of your hand, I miss your smile, I miss your stupid jokes, and not forgetting how i miss your sweetness.
Now that you are gone from my life, seems like you are not coming back.
But, let me tell you my greatest secret. Let this be the 1st and the last time i say it to you,, I love you.

HaruHaru (english)
Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)
Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh boy I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you
Oh boy I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye

Sometimes I wonder if little kids have it easy. Scrapes from bike riding are the worst pain. The biggest concern is that recess isn’t long enough. mommy or daddy can make anything all better. anyone of the opposite sex is yucky or has cooties. LOL. two kids of the same sex can hold hands and are just cute and nothing else. ‘good-bye’ means ‘see you tomorrow’. The worst fighting you do is over who gets the red crayon. If you hang out together one recess automatically you’re best friends forever. A valentine made of construction paper is the best gift you can give and no one was afraid to say ‘I Love You.’♥

Helppp. Somebody help me!
This feeling is really suck!
What is this??!
Is it just me?? Just me, thinking too much??!
Godddd. My feelings are mixed now!
My tears are just drop like that! again! *wasted!* :(
Somebody please help me find the way. I am kind of lost here! :(
I was wrong to get involved in this game.
The game that is full of traps. I just feel like quitting it RIGHT NAOO! :(
If i could turn back the time, believe me, i would!

This heart is so fregile. So whoever is going to have it in future, please take really good care of it and I will love you for the rest of my life. I promise ♥

I got tired of waiting. i am tired of empty promises you gave.
I found myself so stupid that i trusted your words.
I knew i shouldn't! But your words were just too sweet that slowly made me fall for you and not realizing that you were just playing me.
So tell me why did you do that to me! What do you really want from me!
I miss you. i really do. But I really can't afford this heart to be broken again. So I am sorry. I got to move on.

Today is Mother's day. so let me scream it out loud, "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUUUU ♥" and i miss you! :(
sorry for being a pain on your neck. thanks for running to me and give your arms whenever i fall. thanks for everything mommmmmmm I LOVE YOU THE MOST! :D
and so this is dedicated to you mom ♥


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Penuh Debu dan Usang
ku Pandangi Semua Gambar Diri
Kecil Bersih Belum Ternoda

Pikirkupun Melayang
Dahulu Penuh Kasih
Teringat Semua Cerita Orang
Tentang Riwayatku

Kata Mereka Diriku Slalu Dimanja
Kata Mereka Diriku Slalu Dtimang

Nada Nada Yang Indah
Slalu Terurai Darinya
Tangisan Nakal Dari Bibirku
Takkan Jadi Deritanya

Tangan Halus dan Suci

Tlah Mengangkat Diri Ini
Jiwa Raga dan Seluruh Hidup
Rela Dia Berikan

Oh Bunda Ada dan Tiada Dirimu
Kan Slalu Ada Di Dalam Hatiku

Melly Goeslow.


ps. i love you mama.

Geez. such a long time since i last posted. LOL.
started to get lazy of blogging. LOL.
Exams are around the cornerr. have to study. so yeaa. must understandddd.! hehe :)
a lot of things happened, especially during my birthday! ;)
here are some pictures to share. dont get tired of looking at it okayy?? ILOVEYOUUUU♥ :D


this picture cool isnt itt?? hehe :D







ohyhaaa. i wanna share something about the guy that i like *shy*. ps,getting closserrrrr ><" jiayou meeeeee ♥ :D
okay end here. hehe.

byes♥

i have a hope..
i wish...


okay!.
stay at home the whole day is so boring! damn~
should have gone to school! may b my day would be better. LOL.
problems are coming just like a big wave and i shall be strong to face them!
on the other hand fking exams are coming and mood of studying isn't there yet! :(
wish me a good luck!

Because things change, Friends leave and life does not stop for anybody .

a lot of things happened today.
during break something that is unpredictable happened!
Kathy conffessed to Jevin. damn funny lah that girl. cute though. hahahah.
Jevin walked out of the cabin room and then after a few second, the door was opened again and there Kethy shouted "I LOVE YOU" to jevin. Just like a climax of a drama iwatched! haha.
Laughed a lot. i laughed like mad when i saw a "mad dog" running around the shelter during table tennis. HAHA eldo is fk*ing funny! haha.